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The rise and decline of Western Civilization....

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 06:58:55 GMT

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 14:21:17 GMT

"the consumer embryo begins to develop during the first year of existance. children begin thier consumer journey in infancy and they certainly deserve consideration as consumers at that time" - James U McNeal - Pioneering Youth Marketer

Welcome to the future. Were all labrats to some of these people.

"These Companies [youth marketers] are very similar to pedifiles" - (From the movie consuming kids)

http://www.mediaed.org/cgi-bin/commerce.cgi?p..readd=action&key=134&template=PDGCommTemplate..s/HTN/Item_Preview.html

My art exhibit

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 03:50:24 GMT

This is the slideshow of my work that played at the art exhibit in midtown This month. It was me and some other artists.

Hope.

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 04:45:37 GMT

Believe not thine own heart but seek the Lord's. - Me

I wish I had true love

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 08:21:05 GMT

So I'm up late doing some work now and browsing the facebook "do you like me" application and listening to this

It made me think. What am I looking for exactly? A love so deep, so true that I could possibly find at the lonlinest hour of the night. I mean how much of our thoughts are wrapped up in finding true love. This perfect love that will sweep us off our feet.

I know of people who have invested thier time money and lives only to see this fail them. I know of people who have taken chances on love in long distance relationships that span the globe with partners millions of miles away. Why? Is it a garantee? Can it fullfill our deepest longings? Does it ever? Is it not just another human with faults and failings such as ours? Now don't think I'm a pessimist. I'm not. After being single for 27 years I had my first relationship. I am now 29. I think of myself as a romantic guy. But I question the almost unearthly commitment to something that never does what people expect it to do.

It makes me think we are longing for something deeper. Something more...

It's funny because there is a song by U2 that goes like this...

I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you

I have run I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
Only to be with you
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
But yes I'm still running.
You broke the bonds
You loosened the chains
You carried the cross
And my shame
And my shame
You know I believed it
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

The last bit really cuts deep.

You broke the bonds
You loosened the chains
You carried the cross
And my shame
And my shame
You know I believed it
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

It is what I think makes this song so powerful. How many of us as Christians cannot say this is true. It like this... God stepped down from heaven became a man. Was crucified. Swallowed up the damnation of hell so we dont ever have to go there. Rose again and Ascended to heaven to prepare a place for us to be with him forever.

He calls those who truly follow him sons. He says that one day we will be with him and he did all this because he loves us. As david crowder put it......

Heaven Came down

Heaven came down and glory filled my soul
When at the cross my Savior made me whole
My sins were washed away
And my night was turned to day
When heaven came down and glory filled my soul

O, what a wonderful, wonderful day
Day I will never forget
When I was wandering in darkness away
Jesus my Savior I met

O, what a tender compassionate Friend
He met the need of my heart
Shadows dispelling with joy I am telling
He made all the darkness depart

O, what a wonderful, wonderful day,
yeah, today
And O, what a glorious, glorious day
The day You came, came to save me
O, what a wonderful, wonderful day
The day You came and You saved me

I pray that we all let the Passion of our Lord fill us when we are at our lonliest hour. Even if that is everyday. Why? Because on that cross he was lonlinesss so that one day we would neverhave to feel it EVER again. It's worth it. Keep going. It's worth it....

Testimony about the power of Jesus Christ.

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 02:59:39 GMT

http://relevantrevolution.com/mp3/testimony.mp3

Jesus Saves.

True love.

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 12:49:24 GMT

So I was at an Olympics party yesterday at my friends house last night and there were two women there I ended up talking to most of the night. Apparently two of my other friends went to a wedding and met them there and they got along so well they told them to come along. After talking with them for 2 minutes you unerstood why. They had amazing personalities to match their beauty.

One of them I connected with really well. She had as much personality as me which is rare. We were both going nuts together! I couldn't stop laughing because she was so funny! In times like that when I connect with the opposite sex and the attraction is mutual I go into my hopeless romantic stage and start thinking about how great it would be if this girl were a die hard Christian who loved missions and wanted to traverse the world with me for the glory of God. What if we were married and forsaked all for God. What if what if.

It seems we all have this longing for romance. A romance that will satisfy us. A love that will in some way complete us. Although I am a hopeless romantic I am realistic about relationships. That sometimes makes people jaded but not me. The reason is I know the lover of my soul. I know what will truly satisfy eternally and permanently. Yeshua. Jesus Christ.

Love and falling in love are good things but my ultimate hope is in the lover of my soul. The one who loved me first. G-d.

One day you'll look back...

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 22:29:41 GMT

I just want to tell everyone that Jesus loves you.

More than the thing you did wrong
More than you want to get everything right
More than you think you want money
More than you love your own life
More than you think you want your own way
More than all the wrongs you ever did, will do or are going to do

His love is exactly so great that if experienced and realized at any point can change everything about you. It's never too late. It's never to early. I realize the reason why he could tell his original 12 disciples to follow him because all that's required to be a follower of Christ is to trust him. To believe him. That was their only credentials. They were in fact the rejects of society. Please realize God was making a point. Need I remind you of the church in Laodicia in revelation 3? The Best of the best and the Richest of the rich yet that did not secure them in the site of Jesus. In fact Jesus had nothing good to say about them....

It's not about our works and God is really really showing me that. This note isn't about anything you haven't heard before. But it is about longing for this experience. It's about longing for God everyday DESPITE our wicked hearts. The beatitudes put it like this

Matthew 5:6
Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.

Doesn't say those who get everything right. This isn't about legalism. This is about two things. Grace and humility. Two things the church doesn't teach a whole lot of. The church teaches Legalism sure. But how many of you can say your life is changed by the knowledge of grace? Have you ever been in love? I mean deeply. Is that love based on you telling your mate ok follow this list and Ill love you. No.

The love is so wonderful that as soon as you get up all you can think of is hearing their voice. It's rapturous not legalistic. Do you really think an omnipotent God NEEDS our works? Jesus came to SAVE US. It isn't about us saving him. Right now my life in the eyes of the world is not a success. There is PLENTY going wrong. But praise be to God. I look to the testimony of the saints and the martyrs and pray to almighty God that my life will be a testimony to the Glory of God. Paul puts it like this

Gal 6:14 But far be it from me to boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by which [2] the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world.

Rules are good don't get me wrong. Jesus said he did not come to loosen one jot or tittle of the law. But he also said

Matthew 22:37 Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'^[a] 38This is the first and greatest commandment. 39And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'^[b]In the vein of Matthew 22:37 let me summarize everything I've written by saying this. I'll preface it by saying those who say "I know" don't know. Let me sustain that. Have you ever tried to tell someone something that would help them only to be frustrated by their pride? Wisdom is Humility.

Now to Summarize: The entirety of what I've written is sustained in this. Whatever. You think. you see. in your sin. is found. in Jesus Christ.

I realized this one day staring at pornography one day. It was as if Jesus finally opened my eyes. I had to admit to myself that I thought I was going to find something in the filth I was corrupting my imagination with. In reality the stuff was going to leave my appetite for women ruined. Do enough of it and you will never be filled because the objective of lust IS the appetite. Now if that doesn't scare you I don't know what will. It makes sense after you see a random man masturbating in the back stock of whole foods market like my store did one day because his passions were untamed.

I'll never forget sitting in a hospice one day and watching a good friend of mine's mother die as she rejected Christ. I'm telling you as much as I saw the horror of her sickness eating away at her entire body the reality of her spiritual sickness was what was truly mortifying. Friends we need to beg God to show us the death clinging to our poor choices. But I think our choices and lives would look different. Our shame made evident by the masks we wear in hiding our sin would be forever changed by knowing that God loves is eternally, unconditionally and no matter what we do. Fear, shame, guilt, and death itself would be conquered. Amen.

The Prodigal Son.

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 02:30:29 GMT

Rembrandt's final word is given in his monumental painting of the Return of the Prodigal Son. Here he interprets the Christian idea of mercy with an extraordinary solemnity, as though this were his spiritual testament to the world. It goes beyond the works of all other Baroque artists in the evocation of religious mood and human sympathy. The aged artist's power of realism is not diminished, but increased by psychological insight and spiritual awareness. Expressive lighting and colouring and the magic suggestiveness of his technique, together with a selective simplicity of setting, help us to feel the full impact of the event.

The main group of the father and the Prodigal Son stands out in light against an enormous dark surface. Particularly vivid are the ragged garment of the son, and the old man's sleeves, which are ochre tinged with golden olive; the ochre colour combined with an intense scarlet red in the father's cloak forms an unforgettable colouristic harmony. The observer is roused to a feeling of some extraordinary event. The son, ruined and repellent, with his bald head and the appearance of an outcast, returns to his father's house after long wanderings and many vicissitudes. He has wasted his heritage in foreign lands and has sunk to the condition of a swineherd. His old father, dressed in rich garments, as are the assistant figures, has hurried to meet him before the door and receives the long-lost son with the utmost fatherly love.

The occurrence is devoid of any momentary violent emotion, but is raised to a solemn calm that lends to the figures some of the qualities of statues and gives the emotions of a lasting character, no longer subject to the changes of time. Unforgettable is the image of the repentant sinner leaning against his father's breast and the old father bending over his son. The father's features tell of a goodness sublime and august; so do his outstretched hands, not free from the stiffness of old age. The whole represents a symbol of all homecoming, of the darkness of human existence illuminated by tenderness, of weary and sinful mankind taking refuge in the shelter of God's mercy.

Pray for my mother...

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 01:20:31 GMT

Hey guys. Well Some of you may not know so let me give you a brief history of whats been going on. After 9/11 my father took ill and the diabeties worsened his health and he soon after got kidney failure. Right now he has one good kidney and even that one is dwindling. He needs a transplant. Since his turn for the worse my mother has been handling the finances as such... taking money out of thier life savings account. No one knew she was doing this including my dad but it was the only thing she could do to make ends meet. Their life savings is now wiped out almost completely. I think this is one of the things that made everything come to this point.

She had been really stressing out these past two weeks and had fears of us all being homeless and not being able to cover things financially. I've been having to console her and bring her down and I briefly looked over the finances and let her know that it will be ok. My Aunt Ellene also came over and looked over the finances and let her know that there are alternatives and levels of survival that are possible. She is a worrier and has control issues I think. I really need prayer and for me and all of us and any solid help beyond that would be awesome also. It seems fear has gripped her. Two days ago she mentioned breaking down a little and even hearing voices and having suicidal thoughts.

I don't know what to do as I really just found all this out. Again any help would be appreciated. Everyone in my family is a Christian. Thanks

update: She actually had a major depression episode. not a nervous breakdown. my immediate family will help out and finances should be ok as far as we can see. The doctor said that this is more of a matter of medicine and she needs to be medicated. There is a chemical imbalance of sorts and it is similar to diabetes or something like that where it is out of her control and needs a medical remedy due to her system being out of wack.

UPDATE

ok she is now at a hospital in Long Island staying overnight. She is medicated and they are observing her. It seems she worsened after we took her the first time. Thanks for your prayers and not forgetting me.

2 Tim 2

9 for which I am suffering, bound with chains as a criminal. But the word of God is not bound! 10 Therefore I endure everything for the sake of the elect, that they also may obtain the salvation that is in Christ Jesus with eternal glory. 11 The saying is trustworthy, for:

If we have died with him, we will also live with him;
12 if we endure, we will also reign with him;
if we deny him, he also will deny us;
13 if we are faithless, he remains faithful—

for he cannot deny himself.